Inside, I sometimes ride a grey/gray cloud of hope. I refuse to give up. That’s why the hope is gray.
You see, a darkness lives inside me. A part of me…
It intertwines its way through my mind and emotions. Greying what I see and feel. Every unexpected noise a thunderous sound… Drowning out everything. Driving me over the edge instantly… Into madness…
I have to cover my ears and seek a silence of some kind…
It’s so loud, it’s painful…
My light, -(My love)- she guides me.
Carving the darkness to grey/gray.
Muting the loud noises to a dull acceptable level…
She quiets the intrusion, taking my hand away from my ears and kissing me softly.
To make my life, worth…
I love you, my pretty girl.
T.L. Stafford
01/2018
I feel so blessed that I can be that for you.
Have I ever told how beautiful you are?
Yes, but I love hearing it 🙂
This is absolutely gorgeous. You are both blessed to have each other, my friend.
*smiles* Thank you… Though, I think she just has bad taste! 😉
No. She sees the real you, past all the dirt and grime, is all. I’m sure she’d agree.
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We all have some darkness inside us…but it ended well. Hahaha
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Powerful! 🙂
Lovely end☺
I think if my husband were a writer, he would say just those words to me. He fights the darkness of mental illness and prison daily and says I’m what keeps him going. Teared up reading this, hence no comment at first.
I do appreciate you commenting. I often will read someone’s poem where I like love it but am speechless. The content so hard to discuss or talk about and you just want to hug the stranger you know nothing about. I can’t imagine the loss you both feel. The pain must be unbearable. 😦
Mental problems are a huge fight… I can’t escape them myself and though penny less and sick. I have everything I could ever want… Though the darkness will take the light away again.
It sucks…
Yes, that’s what my “today is a good day” is, complete with his crazy ups! All others are the results of his downward spiral 😥
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Thanks for the follow!
🙂 Thank you as well!
… darkness is a bit lighter when we have a sweet hand leading us out of its tunnel…
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Beautifully said, B. Love your relevant and poetic comment!
Thank you! You are very kind!
And YOU, just like Tim, are very good with words!
Very nicely expressed.
🙂 Thank you
I thoroughly enjoy reading the freshness of your blog my friend and so much so have nominated you for the Liebster Award https://aguycalledbloke.wordpress.com/2018/01/02/leibster-award-nomination/
This is beautiful. I love the ending. Now our have made me see grey in a different light. Brilliant.
This is gorgeous. Love the ending
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Beautiful
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Superb Writing! U r blessed my friend to have such a companion with u in ur dark days. God bless u both of u and ur children.
Thank you. She is an amazing friend and wife. I feel guilty that I can get wrapped up in my emotions sometimes… thank you again for your kind words!!
I am sure, she understands that and she still loves u as a package. Take care of her and of urself too for her sake and ur children.
Great post. Your wife knows what love is…..it takes you through the dark times so you can enjoy the light together. wish more knew that secret
She is always there for me and never ever complains and is an amazing friend, wife, and person. Well, she does grind her teeth in her sleep. I guess no one can be perfect! 😉
So much painful wisdom and love in this. The opening image of a grey cloud of hope is memorable.
🙂 thank you!
This is brilliant! Expresses how I feel so often too! I’m so glad yu have somoen to hold your hand as you walk through the darkness.
Thank you… She is amazing. She would say otherwise, lol. I feel guilty sometimes for my moods and feelings. There she will be… Kissing me on my forehead. Holding my hand. Telling me how much she loves me. It is truly a storybook love. I am very lucky…
Tim, the words that come straight from your heart are never dark or grey even when you write about the darker places you have been. I find your words to be a moment of light & hope and an example of gratitude for all of us.
Thank you! That means a lot to me… I appreciate your kindness
Ditto! 😍
This is beautiful! In a world where everything is judged you have found someone who sees you as a whole and choses to love you anyways. I liked this! I also wanted to let you know that I have nominated you for the awesome blogger award. The post is on my blog and all you have to do is read it and follow the instructions. Congrats!
Beautiful articulation
Thank you!
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