It’s an invasion of my private mind. That darkness, those things…
I’m being chased, yet frozen. Helpless… I’m drowning in a bad acid trip from hell, yet no medicinals are involved.
The walls are melting… No, they are the walls themselves. They peel themselves away, slowly, peeking around.
They look everywhere but at me. They are ignoring me for last.
I can see the hollow black eyes searching around every corner of the room.
Oh, Jesus, please don’t let them look my way.
Is it too late to pray? Do I get to pay for my sins now? Is this my hell? This frozen state of mind?
I fall into a Nightmare from a waking dream. My lucid state has no control I’m third-person watching the horror.
I’m waking already… I fight to hold onto the horror of the dream, the Nightmare.
My real-world pain (fucking cancer) wakes me.
Oh… No movement… Again frozen in terror…
I’m breaking…
I can see the cracks fill the Grey/Gray. They are there, turning, looking…
Whispers…
Are they talking?
They are coming for me…
I wake to sweat and chilled…
I think I’m crying.
Am I crying?
god damn it, T. I feel helpless.
You’re okay hun… luckily it’s only a few times a week… sometimes I go months. There are people who have terrors nightly, uhg… I feel so much for them.
I don’t feel okay. I want to help!!
I know you do. You’re a very sweet friend that I’m grateful to have…
Oh! Thank you.
Sorry to hear these night terrors strike you – hope they will be fewer and farther between very soon.
Thank you… me too. It helps to write about them.
You’re welcome – that’s good to get it out of your head that way.
You sound convincingly terrified.
At the time, (last night) I was…
I thought you were writing fiction. If it was real, it’s all the worse. I remember having nightmares as a child and I never want to relive those. Think happy thoughts before you close your eyes.
Yeah, unfortunately real. Though I do enjoy writing fiction, I have yet to write any fiction on my blog here. All true poems and stories so far. I never thought I would be so forthcoming! LOL
Do you have cancer? 😦
I am a cancer survivor. At the moment. No, I do not. (Thank God) After the surgeries… chemo and all that bull crap. I was left with bad nerve damage. So, a lot of pain. It sucks… No worries hun… I can deal… 😉 It wakes me up a lot though or doesn’t let me rest completely sometimes. That part makes me very bitter, lol… but I’m okay.
I’m happy in some way, that you’re cured 😊
But I’m sad for your pain 😞
I wish there was a medication that could help you
You’re very sweet, thank you. I’ll get by… no worries
My wife is a cancer surviver
13 years
it requires lot of will power & support to come out ,
Thanks ,
I agree!! Sometimes you get lost in all of the aftermath.
Yes sir ,
I felt and understood your pain. It was very vivid.
I’m glad you are a survivor, you give hope in the darkness. And darkness is terrifying.
Thank you! 🙂 Yes, the darkness is terrifying!
no..I don’t like that it is terrifying. I’d agree, but not like. :o)
Terror is the right word this is exactly what you managed to describe and I can’t think about how it can be living it.I really wish these nights of terror of yours will gradually became less and less frequent until they disappear.
Over the years they have gotten better. Stress brings them on stronger. Other “triggers”… It has been extremely difficult lately… You are very sweet for caring so much to comment. I appreciate it. I haven’t been active on WordPress as of late… Not active in anything in my life really. To have so many care and comment is truly humbling.
You deserve them ❤️always here to support
I feel so terrified…. I want to help…
Awww, you are very sweet! Thank you! Writing about it helps a lot. All you guys are great wanting to help. It humbles me how many people comment and scares me how many sympathize with similar experiences.
Yes. I’m glad it helps a bit at least
That gave me shivers. Not sure I care to sleep anytime soon!
I wish I could step into your terrors and fight away the things that haunt you. I am praying for you on this though. I love you so much bro!! ❤️
Thank you baby! I love you too.
Nightmares are the worst!! Im so sorry 😔
It’s okay! Thank you 🙂
Sending you a big hug Tim and lots of good vibes. Really hope your pain and terrors go away soon.
Thank you, hun.
My pleasure Tim! xoxo
What a gift you have to be able to let the right words to find your feelings… it’s like your soul speaking directly to us…
Wow, what a compliment! You are amazing! Thank you!
Thank you! I just said what I think.
🙂
Your gave words to what I experience often as well. I’m so sorry these night terrors plague you as well. I hope they ease up for you soon. Praise God you can help others understand through your words. You are very strong to share. I appreciate it!
I appreciate your comments and your own blog posts. I have read some of the troubles you have experienced. It’s hard all the way around…
Thank you, it is.
It’s a detached yet terrified state of mind and when you’re in the middle of it feels as if it will last forever.
Yeah… Harder to deal with by the week
Is there anything you can do to make life a little more tolerable while you waiting for it to pass.
Wll, I haven’t “attempted” therapy of some type in well over a decade.
My family is pretty amazing too. So that helps… just hard to keep dealing with. Terrifying actually, lol.. I know it isn’t anything to laugh at. I can’t help it though.
Posts like this make me so glad I do not have vivid dreams (nightmares).