When The Sun Goes Down…

They came with me, built in like an unwanted feature you never use in a machine…
My sins…
My punishment. Breaking my mind down.
They creep and crawl along the walls…
The shadows, the darkness…
Oh, please… God, please, make them go away…
I’m sweating…
My eyes sting with salty daggers.
I’m frozen still…
I can’t wipe away the sweat or the tears…
I’m yelling…
I’m screaming…
No one can hear me, except them…
They see me. Fuck, how stupid of me…
I am so dumb…
I attracted their attention.
Did it just smile?
They are coming for me!
Jesus, they are near!!
I’m crying… It doesn’t matter…
I will die soon. It will kill me…
It will all be over…
I wake to the pain, the fire. The only times I am grateful for it.
It waits in the darkness for me.
They…
Them…
I can hear them, snickering.
Waiting, the monsters in the dark…
T.L Stafford
9-1-2018

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18 comments

  1. A few nights ago I experienced my first night terror. And as I lay there paralyzed and starting to freak out, I thought to myself, so this is a drop of what Tim deals with. And it was a slap in the face. How fucking easy I have it.
    That said, I love this.

  2. I have a beautiful soul who speaks and guides me as none else ever has. He told me that our demons, if we embrace them rather than fear them, will , in our arms, turn into a part of ourselves that loves us and is trying to help us regain our balance. There is dark and light in everything, it is the nature of this plane we exist on. Take your demons, own them, look them in the eyes, bind their leathery wings in your arms and watch as they teach you to love yourself not inspire of them, but because of them. ❤️

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